My song for the moment

                                                            "I Won't Give Up"

When I look into your eyes
It's like watching the night sky
Or a beautiful sunrise
There's so much they hold
And just like them old stars
I see that you've come so far
To be right where you are
How old is your soul?

I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up

And when you're needing your space
To do some navigating
I'll be here patiently waiting
To see what you find

'Cause even the stars they burn
Some even fall to the earth
We've got a lot to learn
God knows we're worth it
No: I won't give up

I don't wanna be someone who walks away so easily
I'm here to stay and make the difference that I can make
Our differences they do a lot to teach us how to use
The tools and gifts we got, yeah, we got a lot at stake
And in the end, you're still my friend at least we did intend
For us to work we didn't break, we didn't burn
We had to learn how to bend without the world caving in
I had to learn what I've got, and what I'm not, and who I am

I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up, still looking up.

I won't give up on us (no I'm not giving up)
God knows I'm tough enough (I am tough, I am loved)
We've got a lot to learn (we're alive, we are loved)
God knows we're worth it (and we're worth it)

I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up

sad

Kung pwede lang. Bakit hindi? Alam mo namang gagawin ko ang lahat para sa relationship na 'to. And I am just protecting our relationship. Sana maintindihan mo na hindi ko rin to gusto. Kung wala nga lang akong obligation pa, come what may..pero hindi pwede yun eh..masakit lang.. :(

Acceptance

Hi Bro, I can't explain what I am feeling, what will

I feel or what should I feel. If my family can't accept

for who I am then who will accept me? Ang hirap

pala ng buhay. Ang hirap hirap.. There was a

moment sa Masinag kanina, after ko bumaba

ng jeep, there was a moment na gusto ko tumigil

na lang lahat kahit sandali lang. I just want to

breathe. Pero, kailangan lumaban diba? You gave

this life to me and I want to give it back to you

Bro..I am sorry I'm saying this, pero I'm tired

of disappointing everyone..hurting everyone by

my choices. Disappointing them by living who I am.

They are the ones who should first accept me pero hindi.

Paano pa ko lalaban kung sila mismo ang nagsasabi

na mali ang pinili kong buhay? Bro, hindi ko naman

mababago kung sino ako. Please guide me.

1 STEP

Hi Bro, Hirap lang..ang bigat..alam ko may katapusan din 'to..lahat ng 'to. Thanks for giving Bon to me. She's everything Bro. She's my strength..Pag sobrang bigat like this, am just thinking a future with her and ang alam ko, lalaban ako para dun. Sa Future na yun. Sana, it will come true. Mahal ko sya. Haharapin ko 'to para sa future with her.. :)

One F*CKIN day!

Ang tagal ko na uli bago nagsulat ah..Sobrang bigat lang..Ang araw na 'to ang pinaka madramang araw ngayong taon. Bad trip sa work. Olats sa mga bagay na akala ko okay na. Bakit kaya ganon? Bakit kaya may mga tao na para lang ma-achieve ang mga selfish interests nila, nagagawa nilang manlamang, gumawa ng chismis, at makapanakit? Sa mga taong sobra ka pang nagtiwala? Maybe, that's one of the greatest lessons I've learned so far, wag basta basta magtiwala. Give your trust to those people who deserve it. Tapos, kung sino pa yung akala mo makakaintindi sa'yo, hindi pala. There'll be NO one who could understand you truly, except YOURSELF.