Hats off to you!

Yesterday, it was a road trip again with her. My boss. This time, Los Banos,Laguna. I really enjoyed travelling, yung long roads na magaganda yung view. During my stay sa Jardin, I went to a lot of places na, discover things and met famous, intelligent people. I owe it to my boss. She's strict, demands your time and attention, very smart..typical boss na napapanood sa tv. Pero, in months time na magkasama kami, I discover traits of her na masasabi kong hats off to you ma'am! She's an artist, a collector, a painter, a licensed broker, an entrepreneur, a director, and a president of a corporation.
12:50 pm yesterday, I arrived at the lobby of a condominium where she lives. Around 1:30, bumaba na sya, with her famous line, "How are you?" Para sa mga taong hindi sya kilala, ang isasagot ay, i'm okay or i'm fine. Pero samin, she means, "What's your report?" I started saying all the updates that she needs pero naputol kasi dumating na si Kuya Willy. I met, Ann Pamintuan, an award-winning artist. Gumagawa sya ng metal furniture, wall art and sculptures. Naka display yun sa mga 5-star hotels. Wow talaga! 4.3o pm when we arrived at Dr. Ben Vergara's place, a national scientist. Isa na namang wow! :) Ang sadya namin dun is to see her wife's collection of christmas villages. Around 500 christmas houses. Before ka makapasok sa house nila, it has a long driveway and sobrang ganda ng place. Different kinds of plants, because Dr. Vergara is a scientist of plants. Nung papasok na kami, Dr. Lina, his wife, said, bubuksan ko lang ang light ng mga christmas villages. At ang sumunod, breath taking view! Sabi ni Ann Pamintuan, goosebumps! True. Sobrang ganda! Nasa white cloth lang sya, because ang theme nun ay white christmas. Parang nakalutang yung mga villages. Dr. Ben and Dr. Lina has lots of art pieces sa bahay nila..paintings of Malang, Ang Kiukok, Manansala and many more. Meron silang mga pieces of ceramics na galing pang Ning Dynasty. Astig talaga! One of the moments in my life na hindi ko makakalimutan. And I owe it to my boss. To be with intellectual people is the best! Ang dami mong matututunan.. Thanks ma'am! Thanks for the road trip! :)

She's my boss. Now, she's been my mentor in so many things! For that, hats off to you ma'am!

BF

Honestly speaking, malungkot ako. Nakakamiss din yung mga sweet texts, someone who'll say how special you are, kahit yung mga little things like holding someone's hand or telebabad every night. But one of the things I miss most is "in the sea of strangers". Eto kasi yung bansag namin ni tetai sa moment na yun. Eto yung close-up commercial, yung moment na in the sea of strangers, sa dami ng taong makakasalubong mo, isang mukha lang hahanapin mo, isang ngiti lang ang makakapagpa-satisfy sayo..at pag nakita mo na sya..you can't utter any word..you will just smile..at sa isip-isip mo..sya yun. Matagal-tagal narin yung last time kong na-feel yung moment na to. Sobrang gusto..sobrang gusto ko na sya ma-meet..yung taong yun. The person who can give so much happiness. Pero, sa tingin ko..malayo pa..matagal pa..bago uli. Kasi yung gusto kong ka-moment, may ka-moment ng iba. Then someone came along. I can feel that she cares, masarap yung feeling na may magtetext sayo ng "ingat ka..". Flattering words like "i like you.." But, it will be complicated. Kung iisipin ko ang sarili ko, maraming masisirang bagay..maraming masasaktan..pero diba tao lang ako? Ano bang pakialam ko sa kanila..basta ko masaya..But, am i ready? Am i ready to be hurt again? At kaya ko bang saktan ang ibang tao para lang maging masaya? Kasi kahit sang anggulo mo tingnan, wala ding patutunguhan kasi she has responsibilities na kahit kailanman, hindi nya pwedeng talikuran. Hindi ko alam ang gagawin ko..sa biro nyang BF na tawag saken, baka magkatotoo..

Family Tree

I've been searching for a photo that will suit for my blog today. A happy family picture. But, I just can't find any. To think of pasting my own family picture here is not a good idea, because the last picture of us was took when I was just a grader. Yeah, it was a vintage pic. My mom flew to work when I was just on my 1st grade, ate was 8 and bro was 2. It was hard to grew up in family na hindi kumpleto. Malungkot. I remember one scenario in my life, I will be accepting my medal pero ang nandun para isabit yun ay si ate jelyn, yung kasambahay namin. Lumaki ako ng mahiyain. Kaya pag recognition day, lagi akong may ribbon for being kind and quite. I hate it when my classmates ask me questions about why nanay (lola) ang laging nandun to attend PTA meetings. I don't know how to explain the situation of my family. That my mama and papa got separated, that mom is working abroad to give us education and a good life at ang pinakamasakit ay hindi ko na nakita ang dad ko?. For a child, it was hard. It was heartbreaking! But what will I do? Alangan namang everytime iiyak ako? Kaya the best thing is to isolate myself so that no one can ask me. And one thing I hate is when your teacher ask you to do a family tree and you have to present it in the class. Para kong lulubog, I don't have the strength to do it, alam kong any moment tutulo na lang ang luha ko. God! Minsan, insensitive din ang mga teachers eh. Di kasi nila alam na hindi ganon kadali yun. Wow, flashbacks! Speaking of family tree, it will be easy for me to trace my mom's relatives. Siguro I can do it in a minute. Pero, on my dad's side, putol yun for sure. Kasi I never met my relatives on paternal side. The only people I know with the same surname are mom, ate, allan, my lolo and lola (father's side). That's it. Kaya last week, I think of adding every AGUSPINA na makikita ko sa facebook. At least, I could see where they come from. At least, I have an idea. Maybe, one of them is my cousin. Maybe, some questions will be answered, at least maybe.

Tanong

Arianne Rose Badajos Aguspina - who are you?

Minsan pag tumitingin ako sa salamin, tinatanong ko kung sino na ko..minsan, di ko na kilala ang sarili ko. I have a good job, na gusto ko naman. I have a loving family and friends. Pero parang may kulang. Parang di kumpleto. Parang minsan, routine na lang ang lahat. Gigising, magtatrabaho, makikipagkita sa mga kaibigan..pero anong reason? Para saan? Hindi ko makita ang rason sa lahat ng bagay. Nagtatanong ako. What will make me happy? Sana mahanap ko na. Sana sa madaling panahon. Pero saan?