Last day of the first half.

Office was okay. I mean, the people there. Happy 1st year anniversary to Ms. Tin and Kuya Micheal! :) Long way to go guys!!! She brought spag for us. The most awaited chicken feet was spoiled. Sayang.. But, I enjoyed spag, suman, espasol and starbucks in merienda time. Today is the last day of "treat a friend" promo of sbux. So we treat ourselves with frappie. After office, Tzie texted me that she'll be here in manila and invited me to have coffee. Yes, coffee again! Called Buding and rushed to mrt to meet up with Tzie in Starbucks Araneta. I missed her! It's been 3months! She's now working in Laguna as a Cadette Engineer in Samsung. She looks nice and happy with his new boyfie. She still wears the welcoming smile. At 9, umalis na sya because she'll be meeting up with Geb (boyfie) in Makati. Geb will go to Malaysia for 3days training. He's a 3rd placer in Chemical Engineering board exam. Matalino si kuya.. :) I'm happy for you Tzie! At least, after the heart breaking conversation in Sbux convergy's, you now moved on. See you soon. At 9.30, Buding and I decided to go home. Twas a lovely night meeting up with 2 lovely ladies.

Sooo 2008!

I cleaned my room.. :) finally, pero di pa ganun ka-polish. Hehe..may part2 pa yan. Nakita ko yung sbux planner ko last 2008. Ang daming flashbacks! Yung iba nakakaaliw balikan, may mga nakakatawa, nakakainis at nakakaiyak. Pero lahat yun nakaapekto kung ano ako ngayon. Wala pa kasi akong blog nun kaya sulat talaga kung sulat. Ang saya talaga when you are cleaning your room kasi you will find some things that made you appreciate what you have right now. Namiss ko tuloy ang Sykes. Lalo na ang AWT. :) Love you guys!!! Napatext tuloy ako kay Kuya Randy and they are in Antipolo right now. Outing ng team. Pinapahabol nila ko pero kamusta naman! Kung wala lang akong pasok bukas. Ulitin na lang natin yan pagdating ni Anjee. Haayy..I have to sleep na. Maaga pa bukas. :)

Spending Sunday

I started my sunday with a hot cup of coffee while watching Game 6 of the Western Conference Finals. It was a tough game, but Lakers finished the game with a bang. It was Bryant and Artest game. I wished for a win in favor of my Suns. Nash and the rest of the PHX did their best but it was not enough. Laker's men are more big than them. Oh well! GO CELTICS! :) Beat Lakers!!!! :p So, may 500 sakin si Kuya Wi bukas. Awww! Sky cable sucks! Di ako nakapanood ng ASAP. I attended mass with mom early this afternoon. And watched A lot like love. Super funny movie starring Ashton Kutcher and Amanda Peet. These are just bits, because, I spent my whole sunday thinking about YOU. I'm missing you more. Missing you much. :(

My heart says...

It is YOU :)

Mahal kita. Mahal na mahal kita. You are my little piece of sunshine. Kahit pa, bumuhos ang problems sa buhay ko. Knowing that you're there and we are living under one sky, okay na ko. Gusto ko lang sabihin 'to habang naririnig mo pa, habang nandyan ka pa, habang pwede pa. You're name, your words, our talks are the lyrics of my life. And your voice is the melody of it. Paulit ulit kong sasabihin sayo na Mahal kita. Na IKAW yun. At walang iba. Hindi ko man kaya saluhin lahat ng nararamdaman mong pain. Lagi akong nandito. Laging nakaabang. Laging nahihintay.

Sulat uli..

Sulat uli..
Ang bigat..
Ayoko ko umiyak.
Kaya ko 'to.
Ako pa.
Huwag lang akong titingnan sa mata.
Ayoko na ng malungkot.
Ayoko kabahan.
Kaya ko 'to.
Ako pa.

Umuulan...

Umuulan..sign ba 'to ng problema?
Oo nga..kasi biglang nag-ring ang phone.
Kinakabahan ako. Sabi ko na nga ba babalik din yun.
Sabi ko na nga ba, magiging mahirap ang lahat.

Tumawag ang AA sa baba. Nandyan daw ang big boss.
Sinisingil na nya ko sa atraso ko.
Kinakabahan akong bumaba.
Pero kailangan kong harapin eh.
Ayoko na maging dagdag pa sa iisipin ng Nanay ko.
Alam kong kahit hindi sya nagsasalita,
Mahirap na dalahin nya ko.
Sabi ko na nga ba..
Hindi ko matatakasan yun.
Kailangang harapin.
Ang lakas ng tibok ng puso ko.
Sobrang lakas.
Sabi ng big boss kakausapin nya daw ang Nanay ko.
Next week daw. Mukang mabigat yun.
Sana maayos na.
Sana lahat lahat maayos na.

Nag-break lang ako para sumulat.
Bigat eh.
Mailabas lang.

Random Thoughts..biggest irony

I spent my whole life looking for someone..for that one true love. Pero when I found her, I met the biggest irony of my life. Bakit naman ganun? I’m starting to feel tired of searching, of chasing for that someone. Because I know, na kahit saan pa ako makarating kakahanap, wala akong makikita. Unfair talaga ang buhay. Hindi naman kasi ako kasing swerte ng ibang tao na maraming options. Nasubukan ko mag-entertain ng iba, pakape-kape, chatting, texting pero wala talaga eh. Wala yung “chemistry” , walang harmony. Kasi hanggang ngayon, ikaw parin. Ikaw yun. At ngayon, dinudurog ang puso ko malaman lahat. Sana si Superman na lang ako, para pwede ako lumipad papunta sayo, at pwede kita ilipad. Pero hindi eh, ako lang si AR. Wala akong super powers. Nakakainis isipin na wala akong option. Na limited lang ang pwede ko gawin. :(

Mga bagong sana..

Naiinip na ko..gusto ko na lumayo. Mag-start ng life sa ibang lugar. Sobrang gusto ko na umalis. Ayoko na. Nalulungkot na ko. Sana mahanap ko na ang sarili ko. Yung wala akong kakilala. Yung tipong iisa-isahin mo i-discover ang lahat. Sana makilala ko narin sya. Sana may sariling bahay na ako kasama ang taong mahal ko. Baka nga sa ibang lugar nandun ang destiny ko, kung may ganun nga talaga. Sabi sa palabas, alam daw ni God kung kailan ii-schedule ang lahat. Sana ako naman. Sana yung pangarap ko naman. Sana sa susunod kong buksan ang e-mail ko, may sagot na. Please..

Kung ano-ano

Simulan natin kanina..tamad ulit.haay..bakit nga ba tamad ako pumasok?
Ayoko na lang i-entertain ang thought pero taaamaaad talaga ako.
Pero maaga akong pumasok, 7.15 nasa office na.
I ate hopia and fab for breakfast.
Happy today kasi my Suns won! :)
Am not losing hope na makakapasok sila sa Championship.
I answered inquiries but am not satisfied with my outputs for today,
Though, okay naman pero hindi na kasi buo ang loob ko sa work.
Pero pinipilit parin.
Buti na lang masaya sa office.
Buti na lang tawanan parin.
Bumaba ako sa COA to inquire sa gym,
pero di tinuloy kasi daming tao.
Puro maskulado pa.
Nahihiya ako.
Pero I want to start to hit the gym by tomorrow.
Gusto ko na ulit masuot ang mga damit na di na kasya.
Haiz. Hirap ng mataba. Argh!
At ngayon, nag-iinarte si AA.
Di binabasa ang binili kong Grey's na DVD.
Pirated kasi.
At...nagugutom ako kasi di na ako nag-didinner.
Ano kaya mangyayari bukas?

Weekend Galore!

Vin and Chinz..(ang love birds)

Last friday, it was Chinz's Silver birthday. We (Chinz,Vin,Ding & Me) had dinner and played billiards at Perfect Shot in Tomas Morato then had coffee in our Starbucks home.. :) Super kwentuhan and Ding made the night when she spoofed all the candidates' ads! Hahaha! Nakakatawa talaga, but my favorite was Risa Hontiveros jingle and dance moves! :)) And don't forget Risa's "balabal" na kahit ata sa pagtulog suot nya yun. Hehe.. Sayang..she didn't win, binoto pa naman namin sya.

Yesterday was a blast! Divi with Ma'am My and Kuya Nelson. I was sooo tired! My legs were hurting and my head was aching habang nilalakad namin ang Ongpin. But, nice naman coz natapos namin ang kailangan for work and we bought water container ni Kuya Nelson. Mine was Suns and Cavs sa kanya. We also bought jerseys, sa kanya were All stars, Nash and Wade. Yung akin Cavs, it was for my bro kasi. His favorite is Lebron. Para sa pasalubong for office, we bought hopia sa Eng Bee Tin. Sarap! Ayoko pa pumunta uli dun..next year naman uli. Haha!

Plaza 100 moments..

My ear infection is killing me. It was started when I was getting stressed during Ameriprise’s days. I’m suffering from earache, headache and dizziness. I can’t concentrate on what I am doing kasi ang bigat ng ulo ko. I first went to St. Lukes to have it check, the doctor said lagi daw kasi ako naglilinis ng ears kaya naging dry, kahit yung natural oil wala na and he gave me antibiotic which I have to drop twice a day. After weeks of treating it, I stopped. But I can still feel that its hurting pero binalewala ko lang. And now, it’s affecting me so much. Masakit yung back ng ears ko and sumasakit sya from my head down to my nape. I’ll have my check up on Saturday. I just want to get well. I have a lot of things to do than to worry about my 2 ears. Sana gumaling na sya. Pati tuloy yung “something new”, postponed! Hay naku. Anyways, am here in Starbucks Plaza 100. It’s been a while since ginawa ko ‘to mag-isa. Yung tambay lang dito with AA and his sibling..si Woodee.. Dalawa na sila ngayong mahalaga sa buhay ko. One year na si AA sakin and Woodee is 4days old. I purchased her last Saturday, part of the “something new”. Hopefully, madagdagan pa sila. Oh! I almost forgot, Ma’am My and me will go to Divi on Saturday. So I guess, titiisin ko pa ang ear infection na ‘to until next week. Argh! Badtrip! Ms. Didi texted me about the hanging wall display cab. One of the things that we should start working na. Ang dami dami ng dapat gawin. At sisimulan ko na ang isa pa sa mga pending ko, ang Bank Recon. Haayyy..

Cindz..eto yung totoo

Ms. Cindy Tatad..I'm sorry.
Sana kausapin mo na ko.
Sana bati na tayo.
Stupid ako,
Kasi nisaktan kita at..
Nag-lie ako.
Sorry na..
Sana pwede ako bumawi..
Please..
This time, papanindigan ko na.

Uhmmm..

With all honesty, ang tagal ko tinitingnan yung blog ko. Wala akong maisip isulat, or walang reason to write? I dunno why all of a sudden...wala..wala akong gana? Before, am excited to write, excited to share what's up and what's not about me. Pero this past days, am a bit tired. Tired about what's happening with me. Ang hirap i-explain eh. Siguro, am tired of being alone. Ewan. Basta.. Wala akong gana.

Something new..part 3

Haayyy..Thanks JM! :)

See you on wednesday..Salamat sa pagtyaga. It has been a fun day! I'll do my homework..

Na-iinspire ako.. :) Kaya ko 'to!

Something new..part 2

Another step forward to achieve it! :) Honestly, gusto ko umiyak ngayon. Naghahalo yung emotions. Happy, excited, overwhelm..haayyy. sana magawa ko 'to! Kaya ko 'to! This is for the most special person in my life. And I know, she will be happy and I can make her smile. Yung mga reasons na yan ay sobra sobra na para makaya ko 'to..

Bro, bless me.

Bonding with Cindz

I am waiting for Cindz to arrive. After Lady Gaga concert (as far as I remember, that was last year), we didn’t actually had the chance to talk in person. I am happy that we’re finally able to meet. She’s one of those people that interest me most. A psychology graduate of FEU (which by the way, Marion’s best friend) and I can say, a smart girl. I didn’t meet the qualifications she has looking for in a partner. She said, I am too kind for her. Siguro nga, mas okay kami na magkaibigan. Ang tagal nya.. Starbucks Insular was been part of my Sykes’ days. At nandito ang barista na hiningian ko ng number. I wonder if she still remembers me. Haha. Humaba na ang buhok nya ngayon pero ganon parin. Lots of memories! Dito ko ginastos ang pera ko sa kape. Dito ako na-adik kumbaga. Sabi nga nila, dapat may isang poste na ko dito eh. Haha. Most of my call center days were spent here. Sobra sobra sobrang dami ng moments dito. Nandito parin si Kuya Guard. At si Ate sa labas na nagtitinda ng yosi. Nostalgia! Oh..it’s Sir Mark! Yung big boss sa Sykes. Sana may kilala pa kong pumasok from that door. Sana it’s Chelly or Punch or Wardee. Konti na lang kasi natira from Ameriprise. Siguro kung nandito pa ang mga super friends ko, malamang wala ako dito sa loob, nasa labas ako at nagyoyosi. Hahaba pa kaya tong blog ko bago dumating si Cindz? Wag ko naman sana mapuno ang buong page diba? Hehe. Haayyy..all familiar scenes. Sometimes, it’s so good to go back to old places lalo na yung minahal mo. Kailan kaya ko magsusulat ng blog sa Sbux Plaza 100 and reminiscing din ang theme. Haha. Siguro malapit na. Pero sana, pag dumating yun, puro magaganda din ang mga maaalala ko. Yey! Cindz is here na.. Bu-bye muna.. :)

Bestfriends

still on the love swing i see? ...

one minute you are deliriously happy... and then for some reason and with utter urgency you are desolately sad. hmmmm so i guess things are normal after all cause if you weren't acting like that then it could not be you.

as always i just want you to be happy and this time i do not really care about the cost. maybe you can call it desperation on my part. i want you to be happy. it seems to me that you have been through so much heart tearing, bludgeoning and stabbing that you at least deserve to give your self a chance at love no matter how oddly placed, untimely, immoral, unfit (and all imaginable words that signals stop!) it may be.

i already get the fact of the possible casualties to this selfish venture of pursuing love and its promises but hey, life is unfair at most and any level. and maybe this is just one of it ... at least to them.

i mean if you really do love her. go ahead and love her in any situation you are allowed to. love fully. love selflessly. maybe it is bound to end sometime or maybe it would last longer than expected. the point is you loved and hopefully get the opportunity of being loved back in return... which by the way is beyond glorious. I promise you.

Maybe most people would not understand. Some never will. But the only question really is if you love her and if she feels the same ... and if you both agree on that issue maybe it would be great to start talking about how you would go beyond, over, between and out of the odds you might face.

Maybe you can agree to take each challenge one at a time. Agree to be each others support and strength. To both look at the water before jumping in and should you decide to jump in, you jump in holding hands. You jump together.

I am not sure what I want you to do really but I am sure that I want you to be happy.

Kanina, I'm telling you that I love you, but now..I hate you for making me cry..but thank you for your FB message. I'm missing you a lot and thank you so much for understanding me. I remember when I was broken. After ng puyatan from shift, sasamahan mo pa ko sa Glorietta kasi ayoko matulog, ayoko magpahinga kasi takot akong mag-isa. Alam mong duwag ako. At alam mo kung gaano ako ka-iyakin. But you've been there, para alagaan ako, para samahan ako sa pag-iyak, sa pag-inom, sa pag-yosi at sa paggastos ng sobra sobra. Hanggang sa naging okay ako. Ngayon, eto na naman. Kahit gaano ka kalayo, nakukuha mo parin akong samahan. I miss you Ney. And hoping you are here. I need your shoulder, and I badly need your hug. I'm in love but I'm in pain. I'm in pain for months now. Pero ngayon, magiging proud ka sakin, kasi di na ako tulad before na iinom, yoyosi ng maraming pakete at gagastos ng sobra. Iyakin parin pero tinuruan nya ako maging better. Kaya mahal ko sya. Mahal na mahal ko sya Ney. Kung papipiliin ako kung sinong gusto ko makasama sa buhay. Siya yun. Kaso, hindi binigay ng pagkakataon eh. Kaya nasasaktan ako..nasasaktan ako ng sobra sobra. Kasi wala akong magawa. Gusto ko man ipaglaban, pero natatalo ako ng konsensya ko. I want to run away from her but at the same time, I want to run going to her direction. Pero sa lahat ng gabi na iniisip sya, etong gabi yung sobra sobra. Hindi ko alam ang reason. Paulit ulit kong binabasa, tinitingnan lahat ng makakapag paalala sa kanya. Kasi I want to feel her. I want to hear her voice or kahit anong news from her. Gusto ko sya makasama in any way. Hindi ko alam kung hanggang kailan 'to. Kilala mo ako, I will weigh things. At ngayon, ang gusto ko lang..yung lumayo.

Talking with my bestfriend

Thank you Ney for listening. Though we've been apart by seas and hundred of miles, it's good to know that you're still there..to give advice, to comfort me and to make me laugh. I can't pursue that, I know you want me to be happy but, pursuing it will not be the RIGHT thing to do. I think, I need to grab my things and go. Leaving all the pain and the people who are causing it, will be the BEST and the RIGHT thing to do. I'm still hoping that one day, when I look back, I will be proud because of the decision I made. I need to breathe, to think and to be in a place where I can start new. I'll update you. Thank you for lending me your ears and your heart. I miss you and I love you. :)

Movements?

I have so many plans and I'm thinking a lot of things right now.

Hanggang kailan kaya ako dito sa Jardin? Matatagalan ko pa kaya? I'm wondering bakit bigla na lang ako nag-submit ng resume on line. I submitted it to Unilever and San Miguel which included in my dream companies. Bakit kaya ko eager umalis? I'm waiting din for something. Sana matuloy. Gusto ko kasi lumayo. Yung malayong malayo. Para sa sarili ko. Para sa mga dreams ko sa buhay. I want growth. I want to move forward. Ayoko ng ganito lang. Pinagdasal ko pa yun last saturday. Yon ang gusto ng puso ko. Yung lumayo. Yung mag-start ng something new sa ibang lugar. Siguro gusto ko huminga, gusto ko magsimula. I'm praying really hard na sana matuloy. And I am very excited about it. Kahit pa ibig sabihin, marami akong iiwan. Maraming isasakripisyo..pero kailangan eh. Kailangan ko mag-heal. At ngayon na yun. Sana dinggin Niya ang prayers ko. Decided na ko. Tomorrow, it will be a very busy day for sure. Sana kayanin ko na naman ang pressure. Pero, excited na rin ako makita si Ma'am My. Sigurado, daming kwentuhan nito about the election. YELLOW team kami sa office eh. SOLID! :) Sila na lang talaga ang reason why I'm enjoying this work. I will cherish every day na lang, because having work is a blessing from Bro. :)

NOY or NEVER!

If you will ask me, why Noynoy? I will answer you, why not Noynoy? After he decided to run for presidency and filed his candidacy, lahat na ng klaseng black propaganda ginawa ng kabilang kampo. Ako, simple lang ang reasons ko why I will cast my vote for Noynoy. Sa ngayon, hindi natin kailangan ng isang ubod na talinong lider, hindi yung kung saan saan pa nag-aral at kung ano-anong achievements ang natamo. This time, now, we need a leader na alam nating hindi corrupt. Doon ako sa sigurado. Hindi magpapagamit sa kahit kaninong tao dahil may pinangangalagaang prinsipyo. Yung may dedikasyon sa demokrasya at yung marunong mahiya.Tapos na tayo sa may sinasabi o negosyante. Ngayon, kailangan natin ng may puso. Once and for all, let's vote for the person who will make us proud. Kaya I will go for YELLOW!

Acceptance, Forgiveness and Letting go

Masakit sa dibdib. Yan ang The Lovely Bones. Susie Salmon was 14 when she murdered in December 6,1973 by Mr. Harvey, her neighbor. It was not the kind of movie you want to watch before you sleep. Kaya ko kailangang mag-blog para mailabas ang sakit. Life is a never ending letting-go process. You have to experience it over and over again. Pero, everytime you experienced it, masakit parin. Lalo na siguro pag ganitong klaseng scenario yun. Sa pinaka mahirap na paraan. But, you have to accept it eh. Kung never ending letting-go ang life, kakambal nun ang never ending acceptance. You can't live na marami kang dalang bagahe. You have to heal the wounds. You have to move on. Life is too short para i-spend mo lang sa mga negative feelings and things. Sinasabi din sa film na kailangan mong ipakita ang pagmamahal mo sa mga taong mahalaga sayo. Show them that you care. Before it's too late. Hayy, bakit ko ba kasi naisipang manood nito eh, dapat kasi Date Night naman talaga. Pero, its a good movie. Kailangan lang, after you see it, magsaya ka. Sakit talaga sa dibdib eh.

Special day..continues..

We bought ube cake, cheese mamon, and palabok...all mom's favorite. :)

Glad to see my niece and nephew again. Papasok na si Maia sa school this June. All of us are looking forward into that. She's a smart kid. She knows how to write her name, she can count, can read, can distinguish colors, shapes and she knows how to use computer. :) Sabi ni ate may painting and cooking class daw sila kaya ang mahal ng tuition. Grabe, before wala namang ganun. Hehe. Pero, ang ganda nun. The maximum daw per class is 15, so matututukan talaga. Sana lumaki si Maia ng di pasaway at masunurin. Ate naman is not pasaway. And I can say, sa aming tatlo, she's the kindest at pinaka masunurin. Pero ako ang pinaka matalino. Hahaha.. :) I'll buy bag for Maia before June. Ang bilis talaga ng panahon..may estudyante na si Ate. Mom is so happy nung nakita nyang pababa kami sa cab. She was surprised! Well, yun naman talaga ang goal. Hehe.. At least, we made her happy on her special day. Nakita nya ulit ang makukulit nyang mga apo. Malaki narin si Soy..pero pumayat.Nagkasakit kasi. Okay naman ang check-up pero they will go back to the doctor. Mahina daw ang appetite. Sana maging okay na sya. Wawa naman.. They went home at 4. Thanks Ate for the time! Till next bonding! :)

I'm watching Lovely Bones sa missedashow. Masakit sa dibdib ang movie na 'to. Tungkol sya sa isang girl na na-murder. She was just 14. Because she can't accept the truth,she's in between earth and heaven. Nasa purgatory kumbaga. I'm wondering kung ano mangyayari. Paano kaya mahuhuli yung murderer? At hanggang kelan sya magiging lost soul? Ang tagal ng 54mins! Nakakainip! Kasi, I spent 72mins na eh. So I have to go back pa after 54mins. Kaya nag-blog muna ko. Wala namang makausap sa YM or FB. Offline lahat ng choovas at walang interesadong tao na naka-OL. Hahaha!

Special day

Happy Mom's day to all the moms out there!
For the 1st timers..Buding, Carla and Ms. Tin! :)

I will meet ate and my pamangkins in SM Fairview then we will surprise Mom and Nanay. Hehehe.. I told them this morning that it will be just me and ate. Ang di nila alam, susunduin ko lang sila tapos pupunta kami dito sa bahay. Will buy cake, lunch and gifts for them. :) Sounds exciting right?

Happy Mom's day Mama and Nanay! I love you and thanks a lot for everything. Surprising you won't be sufficient for all the sacrifices and love, but..it's our one way of saying THANK YOU ng BIG TIME! :)

Agua Bendita Kembot!

BNC invaded Ocean Park! :)

After one long month of not being together, we finally made a kembot. A nice one! Medyo iba sya sa ibang escapades namin. This time, it's underwater. Watched in Aquatica, dipped into the tunnels of Oceanarium, and to wrap up the night, ihaw-ihaw dinner in Reyes and conservative coffee-conversations in Sbux,Harbour square. Here are some pics grabbed in Buding's multiply account..

Normal day

Early to bed, early to rise.
Kaya early din sa work. Yogurt for breakfast. I picked strawberry this time, lagi na lang kasi mango. Adik na ata ako dun eh. It makes me feel healthy and light. And, light din sa bulsa. :) As I open the door of 2F, I've seen the usual smile that greets me every morning. Nakakapagpagaan talaga ng feeling everytime I see her smile. It gives me security. The whole working day was fine. Nabawasan ang mahabang listahan ng gagawin. Kahit medyo mainit ang ulo ng boss ng boss ko, ayos parin naman. Wala namang bago dun. But, she asked me one question na medyo nag-wonder ako, "Napapagod ka na ba?" WOW! Himala ba ito? Hindi ko alam if, she cares or she's being sarcastic. Pero sa tone nya, muka namang sincere. I said, "Okay lang po, Ma'am My is here naman." She answered, "Ah, okay..I thought napapagod ka na sa madami mong trabaho." Well, I am at times. But, I learned how to love my work. I love what I'm doing. I've started from scratch and I've seen myself grew. At, masaya ako dun. Kahit na minsan, gusto ko na sumigaw sa sobrang stressed at harassed, may reason parin to smile. And I am lucky to have the people around me because they simply makes me appreciate life. Being part of this family is a privilege for me. Because I learned a lot. And learning is a normal thing in my daily routine. Every day, is a room for new things, new learnings. And, I owe it to the boss of my boss. :)

Speaking of normal routines, I still think about her. Talk about her and care about her. Habang nasa bus on my way home, may narinig akong song, it says.."Too much love will kill me if I can't make up my mind.." If this is true, I will die in a split second because until now, I can't make up my mind. There's always a war between my mind and my heart. But, I know where I should stand and that is far away from her. Loving her will be normal in my daily life. It will always be a part of the "normal" routine.

Something new..part 1

Met that "someone" to help me achieve that "something new". :) Magulo ba? Basta I'm happy and I will be meeting that "someone" again on the 16th. Yiheee! Nikikilig ako sa excitement. Sana sana talaga ma-pursue ko yun. Okay naman ang naging arrangements namin. Ma'am My is asking me ngayon kung sino daw yun at ano daw yun while I'm blogging this, nakita nya siguro sa facebook. Hehehe.. Sorry Ma'am, as much as I want to spill it, hindi muna ngayon. Yaan nyo po, hindi ito bad. Hehehe.. I'll be a good anak. Don't worry. And thank you for supporting me again. Kahit na nag-out ako kahapon ng 5:06 para maabutan si "someone" at di sya pag-antayin. On saturday, I'll buy all the things I need for the 16th meeting. Supah excited! :)

Thanks Bro for yesterday. It was such a nice meeting that made me soo happy!
Please give me patience..

Something new

I am planning for something new! *excited*

I hope it will push through.. :) Tomorrow, I'll meet someone that could help me out in achieving this goal. I will do this for a very special reason..I hope I could make her smile with this and hoping it will not be late. But for me to achieve it, I need perseverance, patience and lots of hardwork. I can do this! I will! *wink*

Time to freshen up! Will sleep early tonight for I have to finish my workload at sharp 5 tomorrow. Hehehe.. Bye for now..

...before I log out,
Bro, please help her out. I may not be there in those times that she needed someone, my prayers are with her. Please hug her for me and give her a brave heart.

Thanks a lot for this day..

Moneya Marione Ranga-Doloritos

I was planning to blog a person that made an impact in my life, we're not talking about years..pwedeng yung nakilala ko lang habang bumibili ako ng yosi sa kanto o yung pinaka matalik kong kaibigan which is my first victim here..hehehe..Moneya Marione Ranga-Doloritos. She's from General Santos. City that produces great tasting tuna and yes, great boxer too! According to her, Moneya means money. She has a second name that is similar to my past, Marione, minus the e. :) Ney, as I call her,has been there. Physically present man o hindi. She continues giving me support in all aspects. November 23, 2006, in one of the units in RCBC, I met her. It was NEO (New Employment..I forgot the O..err..)for new employees of Sykes. I was rushing to get in, when I entered the room, naghahanap ako ng mauupuan..a girl in white longsleeves, has a big smile and welcoming aura was waiving..lumapit ako. She said, "Dito kana umupo." Tinanggal nya yung bag nya na para talagang naka-reserve for someone. She has a big back pack. Sabi ko, para namang nag-hiking ang lola mo. She began to talk, "Hi I'm Ney." Sabi ko, "AR"..then we smiled. Then the rest is history..haha. Surprisingly, we had same account, Ameriprise Financial. So we had lots of time to get to know each other. Dun ko din nalaman that she was a graduate of Political Science and a 3rd year law student. (Hindi halata ah..haha!) Dahil sa sobrang hirap ng account namin, at ang best effort lang namin na ginawa ay ang kumain ng shawarma sa 7th floor ng RS (robinson's summit) at ang mag-worry..lagpak kaming dalawa. Ameriprise back office absorbs us. Someone called me for contract signing in One San Miguel,Ortigas, again..surprisingly, Ney was there..(kita mo nga naman. :p) That someone called her also. We both signed a contract for Ameriprise as a trainee. She met Marion. We belong in one team, I think we were destined to be with each other.(Nux!)It was a roller coaster ride! Laugh,tears,gimiks, and a tiring work! Dumaan yung time na broke ako because Marion and I got separated. She was there in every moment until naging okay ako. I remember when she's planning to get married, kailangan na nya umuwi. Her flight was in the morning. Kailangan nandun na sya sa airport ng 5am. Akala nya, hindi ko sya ihahatid. Then on that morning, I called her. "Nandito na ako sa baba." She was very surprised. I brought her sa airport. I remember, I was crying nung nakapila na sya. Parehas ng feeling nung hinahatid namin si Mom nung bata pa ako. Masikip sa dibdib to see her go. She was on leave for one month. Then she got married after few months. Sadly, hindi ako naka-attend. She was living in gensan now for a year. I missed her a lot! As in badly missing her. I miss our talks..never ending talks in ayala. Buti na lang, natupad yung dream namin na makapag-kape sa tagaytay. :) Sabi kasi namin, magkakape kami sa every starbucks store in makati. Dun kasi kami nag-eenjoy. We both love coffee! She is my best friend..my best buddy ever! I won't promise pero I hope I could see her this year. I made the vid I posted few days she left to gensan. I was so sad and seeing her photos made my heart cry. I love you Ney! Thanks a lot for the wonderful years of friendship!

Bus going to tagaytay..See the orange baller? That's our friendship bond. Mine was violet. Colors of Pheonix Suns, which is my favorite basketball team. It means, we will always be team mate. Kahit anong trials, we will support each other. Walang iwanan.

When she got married. Sayang wala ako dun to witness her walking down the aisle.

Celebrating new year in ayala. January 1, 2008.

A well deserve rest.

Nanay cooked nilagang baka for lunch. Yummy! Enjoyed it but had to control myself for I want to lose weight. I want to hit the gym again but I have no time. Promise..this week. I just hope for a lesser work load. Anyway, after having an early lunch, time to turn on the TV for ASAP. I decided to watch in Mom's room. Hayyy...sarap mag-relax! To lie down while watching my favorite ABS show was the best! After ASAP, I watched Gimik 2010. I missed the first episode last sunday. Refreshing to see the Gimik barkada again, one of the shows na kinalakihan ko. I also watched The Buzz. And had pancit canton for merienda. :) I love to rest after weeks of being stressed. Missed the feeling of being a potato couch and just think of nothing. Tomorrow is another rest day. Thank God for holidays! Meanwhile, I have to finish my coffee. No plans yet for tomorrow. But, cleaning my room will be on the list. Im thinking of cleaning my closet too. Tatanggalin ko yung mga clothes na I do not wear anymore. After that, mag-iinquire sa membership fee ng gym. Ayan. May plans na. :)

Last week of April.

Busy week! Nakakapagod! Pero, it was worth it!

Monday and Tuesday: Late umuwi because of deadlines
Sobrang saya na sa office kasi back on board na si Ma'am My. Namiss ko talaga sya at mas masaya talaga pag andyan sya. Feeling ko secure ako. There's something in her na when she's around, laging everything is okay..everything is manageable. Thank you Bro for bringing Ma'am My in our lives. :)

Nung monday, nasa office si Gabs. I enjoyed talking with him kasi ang smart talaga nya. Ang dami dami nyang kwento katulad na lang ng alamat ng saging. Na-miss ko tuloy mga pamangkin ko. After 5, pag wala na ko ginagawa, Manang and I shares yung mga food na nasa pantry. We eat and we share stories. Di ko na minsan namamalayan ang oras.

Wednesday: Dinner, Inuman session @ ujam and first kembot with Tetai's new love!
Dami ko din kembot with BNC pero hindi kami kumpleto lagi. Si Buding, buntis at di pwede gabihin..si Tetai, laging closing..si Bern nasa lipad. Kami lang ni Vin pwedeng magkita. Kaya nung inuman, nagkaroon kami ng chance na mag heart to heart talk. Nakuha ko na rin ang side nya dun sa "red thingy issue". Kahit tapos na yon, at least, naintindihan ko sya. Nakakatuwa din kasi sinama na ni Tetai ang bagong nagpapatibok ng puso nya. Haha! After 2 years of being single, finally..may sinama na ulit sya. Happy for you choova kahit na madaya ka kasi iniwan mo ko..ako na lang single samin! argh!

Thursday: Karinderya escapade with Chins and Ms. Ces
In preparation sa Ironman2, I should watch the first part. Kaya I borrowed Vin's dvd of Ironman 1 which na kay Chins. Met her up sa washington with Ms. Ces and had dinner narin with them. Super fun kasi ni-kwento ko yung mga "sablay moves" ko kay Ysa. Super halakhak silang dalawa. Pero kahit tinatawanan ko na lang yun ngayon, ayaw ko na maulit yun. It made me realized, wag mo na pilitin ang isang bagay na sobrang obvious na di para sayo.

Friday: Part 2 dinner with Chins and Ironman 2 experience with Vin
Nagkita kami ni Vin sa standard chartered ng 6pm. We decided to walk na lang from rufino to G4 kasi sobrang traffic. Umulan ng malakas, buti na lang dun kami sa walkway. Pagdating namin, sobrang daming tao! Kaya pumila agad kami. Ironman 2 was shown in Glorietta's 5 cinemas pero all seats ng 2D weren't available anymore. Grabe! We suppose to get the 8:30 screening time pero pati yung 11pm wala narin. Ang pinaka early ay 10:30 pero di na 2D. Nakakalungkot coz di na nakasama si Chins kasi her shift is 11:30. 2 and a half hours ang Ironman. Sinugod namin ni Vin ang ulan at pumunta kila Chins para tumambay muna. Dinner and tambay sa apartment. At 9.30pm, umalis na kami. Tambay muna sa smoking area while having iced tea habang nag-aantay. By 10.20, pumasok na kami. Ang dami daming tao. Sobrang puno! Ironman rocks! Fan na ko ni Robert Downey! Hahaha! From the start of the film hanggang matapos, di talaga nawala ang attention ko. Astig ang mga gadgets nya and I can't wait for the next Ironman which kasama na si Thor. Went home at 1am. Nakarating sa bahay ng 2am.

Saturday: Mixed Emotions.
Kahit nakauwi ako ng 2am sa bahay. I can't sleep. Naaalala ko sya. I read her text msgs. I've been thinking about her almost every hour. And been missing her. Galit ako. Malungkot ako kasi wala akong magawa. Ang pinakamahirap pala ay yung wala kang magawa, wala ka kasing laban. At tatanggapin mo na lang lahat lahat. Masyado ng masakit. Masyado ng mahirap. Kailangan ng talikuran. Sana kayanin ko. Bro, please help me.