Kaya mo yan!

Nag-aalala ako. Sobra.
Gusto kita yakapin ng mahigpit.
Yakapin ng matagal.
Para maramdaman mong nandito lang ako.
Gusto kong hawakan ang kamay mo ng mahigpit.
Para alam mong may kasama ka.
Hindi ka nag-iisa.
Ibigay mo sakin ang ilan mong dalahin.
Para gumaan ang iyong pakiramdam.
Pero alam kong kaya mo yan!
Sige lang, laban lang!
Kayang kaya mo yan.
Huwag kang susuko at huwag kang tatakas.
Dahil hindi iyon ang sagot.
At huwag mong kakalimutang magbigay ng ngiti.
Ipikit mo ang iyong mata sa panahong mabigat na.
Ramdamin mo ang mga bagay na makakapagpasaya sayo.
Ang mga tao na mahalaga sayo.
Para may lakas ka uling lumaban.
Alam kong matatag ka.
May puso kang mapagmahal.
Sapat na iyon para hindi sumuko.
Huwag kang mahihiyang humingi ng tulong sa Kanya.
Hindi ka mabibigo.
Alam kong, alam mo yan.

My Sunday

It has been a long day! After I had lunch, Chins texted me that Vin wants to see us. Sitting comfortably, watching ASAP, which their opening number was one of the best, anyway, I replied right away. Because I miss Vin and Chins, I agreed to their plan. We’ll watch Losers at SM Fairview. Met at past 2. My face delighted when I saw Vin, we never spoke after the “Red” thingy. I am happy to see my friend again. Super updates, kwentuhan while having taro. Catching things up with lots of stories. At 3pm, we went at cinema 1, met Tetai. Beso-beso and he returned to work. I enjoy The Losers! Action-comedy film starring Zoe Saldana. Galing ng set up, naikot yata nila ang North America and some parts of the Middle East. After watching, met up again with Tetai. Konting kwentuhan lang because we will meet Sykes peeps at Starbucks Araneta Center. Ed, Wardee, April, April’s boyfee, Chins, Vin and I went to Quirino Medical Center to visit our friend Chardy. He’s been hospitalized because of appendicitis and some complications. He was first admitted in San Juan de Dios but transferred in QMC. Been in the hospital for 3weeks now. His fourth operation was last night, lasted for four hours, and I pray it will be the last. He’s in Surgical ICU. First people who came into the room were Wards, April and Ed. After few minutes, Wards came out then I came in. I didn’t know what to say when I saw Chardy. He’s very thin, his body and his eyes are yellow. He has a bad skin condition, spots in his whole body. Two tubes were into him, for blood and for dextrose. You can see that he’s not fine, every time he tries to speak, he closes his eyes, and you can really feel that he’s in pain. I do not know what were the right words to say, to make him feel better. Just to make him smile or for him to know that we’re here. He was not the same Chardy I met. I’ve known him as bubbly, a dancer, a volley player, and a funny guy. I am so sad to see him in that condition. All of us were shocked. He keeps on saying that, “Pag gumaling ako, labas tayo. Kain lang.” Na-mimiss ko na kayo.” Grabe! He even said to Wards that, “Volley ball ulit tayo.” Those words gone straight to my heart. I never thought that he would be in that kind of situation. After we visit Chardy, April went home. Wards, Ed, Chins, Vin and me had dinner at Razon’s. Kailangan talaga namin ng refreshments. I will pray for you Chardy and please, don’t give up. Be strong. We’re here for you.

Thank you notes

Thanks facebook! You’re making my Mom happy. She posted her apo’s photos. It made me smile watching her busy updating it. I will never be surprised if one day, I’ll see that she’s playing café world or farmville. Great that she has her libangan.

Thanks Mom because we’re talking now. Thank you for reaching out to me.
I missed you! I love you. I know that, this is His way.

Thank you for having great friends.
I know that we have differences and sometimes we argue, but they are God’s gift to me. Thank you for a short phone conversation with Buding. She never fails to make me laugh. Thank you for Tetai’s text that made me grin. He always reaches out when all of us are busy with our own world. Thank you Bern for giving a hand. You did not forget us, kahit na sobra ka ng successful. We are so proud of you! And Vin, I miss you. Though, we’ve been harsh, and we’re not getting your point sometimes, you are my friend. It will never change.

Thank you because I have my work.
For this, I learned how to appreciate my earnings.
Inspite the fact that I am stressed, it simply means that I am working hard.

Thank you Bro for giving me a heart that comprehends.
For, touching my soul.
For, answering my prayers last night.
And for making me soooo happy today.

It hit me.

I saw my friend's status message, "Mahal mo ba talaga ang isang tao kung kaya mo syang tiisin?"

I was affected. I even put that as my status msg in ym. Cindy answers back, put this in her status msg "Yan: Hindi mo kayang tiisin ang taong mahal mo. Hindi totoo yan." I answered her ,in my case, tinitiis ko ang taong mahal ko kasi yun ang hinihingi ng pagkakataon. Depende yan sa sitwasyon. Tama naman diba? Sa totoo lang, hindi ko naman gusto to. Sino ba ang ayaw makasama ang taong mahal nya? Hindi kahit kailanman kayang i-kwestyon ang pagmamahal. Kasi may mga pagkakataong dahil sa sobrang mahal mo sya. Kaya mong mag-sakripisyo at talikuran kahit pa ang iyong nararamdaman dahil yun ang tama. Kaya mong magparaya kasi hindi mo kayang isipin na magiging mahirap para sa kanya ang sitwasyon. Masakit. Sobrang sakit. Pero kakayanin mo kasi kailangan. Panahon lang ang makakapagsabi kung kailan pwede ka na tumakbo papabalik sa kanya, na pwde mo na sya lingunin. Na kaya mo ng sabihin, kahit kailan, hindi na kita titiisin kasi panahon na natin to. Hindi mo na kailangan bumitaw kasi tayo naman. Ikaw, kaya mo bang sagutin ang tanong na yan?

Puno ng mangga.

I remember, there was a mango tree in our backyard when I was a kid. It was planted when Ate was born. Sabi ni Nanay, yakapin daw namin yun pag may sakit kami or masama ang loob namin o di kaya nalulungkot. The mango tree will absorb all the negative things we feel. Pero pag malungkot ako, I climb in it and feel the cold air. Ang sarap pakinggan ng mga dahon at damhin ang kapayapaan ng sandali. After attending mass, umaakyat ako dun kasi malilim at nagpapalipad ng saranggola. Minsan, dun ako nangangarap na sana magkaroon ako ng sarili kong bahay kasi ang view from the mango tree ay ang madaming bubungan ng mga bahay sa baranggay namin. May malaki, may maliit, may maganda, may simple lang. Dun ako nag-iisip, nagpapalamig pag napapagalitan at minsan nagtatago pag ayaw matulog sa tanghali. Ang sarap ng bunga nun, ang tamis! Every summer yun namumunga ng sobrang dami. Inaakyat namin sya ng kapatid kong bunso para pitasin ang mga bunga. Tuwang tuwa kaming pinagsasaluhan yun pag hapon. May dumating na bagyo na sobrang lakas. Natatandaan ko nun, high school na ko. Sa sobrang lakas nya, naputol ang isang sanga ng punong mangga. Sabi nila delikado daw kaya kinabukasan, pinaputol sya. Ang alam ko 16years old yun bago nawala. Kasi kasing edad ni Ate yun eh. Lumipas ang panahon, hindi ko alam, may isang punong mangga ulit na mapapamahal sakin. Isang punong mangga na palipasan ko din ng pagod, ng inis at ng init ng ulo. Pero hindi na bubungan ang nakikita ko mula sa pagkaka-upo ko. Mula doon, hindi na bahay ang pinapangarap ko, isang tao na mahal ko.

Work and after work.

Whew! After I had colds, welcome dry cough! Grrr.. I suppose it’s because of the weather condition, which I just heard reached 36.8 degrees celsius. While the sun is rising so hard outside, my beloved workload does it also. Thanks to Ate Malou’s great tasting binagol and Ma’am My’s crunchy mangoes our lunch made the entire rising activities calm down. Thanks to my Miramar siblings who have been so cool handling all the brain bursting situations in the office. Our one-hour sane moments were so sulit! Idagdag pa ang political livelihood effect ng family ni Ms. Tin which made us laugh sa mga stories nya. After 5pm, we had coffee, pandesal, pansit, and the biscuit of Ate Malou from Samar. Tawanan ulit! Yun nalang kasi ang panlaban sa stress eh. Without those flashes, baka nabaliw na kami! Haha! Went home at half a seven, Ms. Ces and I tried the new Starbucks drink, Espresso Java Chip Frappuccino. The difference between the original Java Chip and the Espresso Java Chip is the whip cream; they added 2 shots of espresso, mocha and vanilla. And I tried it for FREE! Yihaa! Thanks to Ms. Ces’ HSBC receipts! They have a promo kasi, for every 2-thousand peso worth of purchase, you’ll get one Starbucks drink for FREE! Love it! Missed the baristas of Plaza 100. Tagal ko ulet bago nakadaan. Kwentuhan and tawanan again! Sarap mag-unwind!

Thanks for all the things, the people and the moments that made me laugh and smile today, those are the ones that made me sane and appreciate life after all!

Time to sleep. Amoy vicks pa ko. Thanks Nanay. J

Love for me.

When you start loving, you are learning not to be selfish. You give without hesitations. You start thinking that life is good. You start to believe in miracles, destiny and that love can really move mountains. You are floating in the air when you hear her voice. You think that clock ticks faster when you’re together but not when you’re apart. After months and years of togetherness, for some reasons, it fades. It did not thrill you at all when she calls. The level of excitement is not the same when you first hold her hand or how sweet it was when you first hear the words I love you. You realized you are living with a stranger. She’s not the same person who gave you the feeling of forever and being in love. She’s different. You will start to ask questions and those questions turn into confusions. The surety of your relationship is not intact anymore. And it will give you reasons, tons of reasons on how to get out. You will say that it’s not working because of this and that but the truth is, you want a way out. You just want a shortcut, a fast solution. For me, Love is not like this. Love endures pain, overcome test and conquer challenges. Love never gives up. And it never fails. It holds and fights. It believes in possibilities and in every promise. It will not have doubts. It has a deep meaning and will not define by flowers, by sweet words or by expensive dates. It’s being together, and standing by one. No matter how impossible it is. It will trust. It will hope.

An article got from yahoo, very timely!

9 Surprising Symptoms of Stress

See if your body is telling you that you’re too anxious and what you can do about it
By By Sarah Jio, Woman's Day

When was the last time you went through a period of stress? Can you remember the way your body reacted? Chances are you didn't feel quite like yourself. Health experts say that stress can come with some pretty surprising symptoms-from forgetfulness to nausea to skin rashes. Is your body sending you an S.O.S. that you shouldn't ignore? Read on to find out if stress is taking a toll on you-and what you can do to reverse the effects.

1. Tweaked Muscles
The pain in your neck that you attributed to long hours at the computer could actually be a symptom of stress. "Stress definitely affects our musculoskeletal system, resulting in tight, contracting muscles and/or spasms in muscles," explains Elizabeth Lombardo, PhD, MS, PT, a psychologist and physical therapist in Wexford, Pennsylvania, and author of A Happy You: Your Ultimate Prescription for Happiness. "It gets us ready for fight-or-flight, although unlike our cavewomen ancestors, we don't actually need our bodies to react like this." If you're experiencing what you believe to be stress-related muscle symptoms, try this exercise: Take 5 to 10 deep breaths and focus on relaxing the tense area of your body, says Dr. Lombardo. For the neck, try gentle neck rolls or enlist your husband to give you a quick shoulder rub.

2. Eye Twitching
Have you ever had an eye twitch? The often temporary condition can be annoying and worrisome, and for some, can be triggered by stress. "This condition is known as blepharospasm," explains Debbie Mandel, MA, a stress and wellness expert and author of Addicted to Stress: A Woman's 7-Step Program to Reclaim Joy and Spontaneity in Life. "Closing your eyes and visualizing your happiest place on earth will help." Also, avoid stress-related eye issues by giving your peepers a break now and then. "If your eyes get stressed from detailed work at the computer, 'stretch' them every 20 minutes by looking out the window at a larger landscape," suggests Mandel. "If you have no view, close your eyes and imagine a panorama."

3. Ragged Cuticles
Do you have ragged, unkempt cuticles or nails? Their condition could be the result of a stress-induced nervous habit. "Nervous habits like nail-biting are how we channel our stress by distracting ourselves with what is known as oral satisfaction," says Mandel, adding that picking nails and cuticles is also a common way for women to deal with feelings of stress and anxiety. If you take stress out on your hands, consider keeping a stress ball in your desk drawer-something you can squeeze or knead when on the phone with a difficult client, for instance. This helps "squeeze the stress out of your body," says Mandel.

4. Cavities
We all know that slacking off on dental hygiene is the first way to get cavities, but stress can also be a culprit, say experts, especially when you're grinding your teeth at night or during the day. Mandel explains teeth grinding, which many women do, as "chewing over the day's stressors." The problem, however, is that this bad habit can erode dental work, damaging your teeth and making them more susceptible to cavities. Mandel suggests redirecting your anxiety to pen and paper. "Set aside time to write down your problems to see them objectively in black and white, and then jot down some solutions," she says. But, she adds, "If teeth grinding is severe, see a dentist about getting a mouth guard."

5. Rashes
It sounds strange, but your skin can be a pretty good barometer of your stress level. "Stress can cause a rash, usually raised red spots or hives on the stomach, back, arms and face," notes Dr. Lombardo. "While we don't know why it occurs, some experts believe that it has to do with the adverse effects of stress on the immune system-histamine is released, causing these itchy bumps." Deep breathing may keep rashes at bay, or from developing in the first place. So, next time you feel your stress level rising, place your hand right above your belly button. "Every time you inhale, you want your hand to rise; with each exhale, it lowers. Take 5 to 10 deep breaths periodically throughout the day."

6. Nausea
Have you ever been worried about a loved one's (or your own) health condition, Googled it and suddenly felt nauseated? "Stress can upset the stomach, and nausea can be a byproduct of worry," says Mandel, who warns against playing "Google MD." Worrying about your health or a loved one's is normal, but obsessing about it is unhealthy. If your anxiety is causing nausea, try this trick that Mandel swears by: Let tepid water run over your fingers; it's believed to keep nausea at bay.

7. Sleepiness
Feeling sluggish? It could be stress. "Stress hormones cause your body to surge with adrenaline and then crash into sleepiness," says Mandel. "Stress will also ruin the quality of your sleep, so you wake up tired and irritable." What to do? Go to bed earlier, says Mandel, or catch a 30-minute nap midday, and don't feel guilty about doing so. "There is great productivity in rest," she says. "You come back more focused!"

8. Forgetfulness
Ask any woman who is trying to do it all and she'll admit to a few slip-ups in the memory department (forgotten appointments, lost keys, missing cell phone-ring a bell?). "Research shows that chronic stress can literally shrink the size of the hippocampus, which is responsible for some memories," says Dr. Lombardo. "Luckily, its size will go back to normal once your stress level reduces." Want to keep your brain functioning at an optimal level? Combat the first signs of stress with exercise, she says: "Go for a walk, run up a flight of stairs or dance around to the newest Black Eyed Peas tune." Exercise, she adds, keeps your brain sharp and may even help you be more prepared for future stressful moments.

9. Confusion
You can't decide what to make for dinner, what to wear to work or which exit to take off the freeway. Stress causes distraction and lack of focus, says Mandel. "Stress hormones lodge longest in the brain," she says. To restore focus, take a walk, she says. "Move the stress out of your body by exercising large muscle groups like the legs. You will gain clarity. Walk out in the light and you'll reset your natural rhythm while you move out the stress. Sunlight helps the body release serotonin to improve mood, and vitamin D helps you improve your immune system-a great perk."


I'm experiencing 6 out of 9..Patay..

Nice nice nice!

Bonding with Buding! :)

Vin and Jena did not make it. After taking a bath, Ding texted me that tita didn't allow her to go out, because she had spotting 2 days ago. I was disappointed but I really need this! I need to pamper myself. So I decided to watch Date Night, a comedy film starring Steve Carell and Tina Fey. Mas okay ang movie na comedy pag mag isa ka kesa naman yung suspense diba? I was thinking pa nga, how would it be? To watch movie with no one? I tried it once pero mas masaya kapag may kasama. Pero sige na, siguro I'll go to Powerbooks na lang then tambay sa sbux. Ganon. Good thing nagtext si Buding before ako nakasakay ng fx going to trinoma. She said, sa San Lazaro na lang daw para mas malapit sa kanila. I went to her place first, ate buko pandan, watched a bit of asap then we went to San Lazaro. Shutter Island is a psychological-suspense film. Sabi ni Buding,pang matalino daw sya.haha! I enjoyed the twist. Setting was in an island where all insane, criminal people were there. The most dreadful persons. Basically, it was a psych ward. Leonardo DiCaprio's performance was awesome! Two thumbs up for him! He was a federal marshall who's investigating on a patient who escaped 2 days ago. The 67th patient of Shutter Island. Then on the latter part of a film, he will discover that he was the 67th patient. He's been there for 24 months. He murdered his wife after his wife drowned their kids in a lake behind their house. He will discover the truth na ang lahat lahat ay part lang ng therapy nya. In psych term, this therapy is called "role playing". Ginawa nila yun because Leo was the most violent patient and he's refusing to accept the reality. He came up with another persona. He's living for his fantasy. Astig diba? Galing galing ni Leo! After the movie, ikot ikot to grab something, sale kasi. haha! Bought a denim-washed shorts and Buding got 2 tops. We ate at Tutti frutti, frozen yogurt pero di sya ganon kasarap. The best parin ang Red Mango! Then we decided to go home. Haayy...sarap kumembot after 10 years! Next week, magkikita ulet kami and another bonding na I will look forward. At least may lakas na ko para bukas! Patay kayong mga deadlines kayo! Hehehe..

Sunday morning

Good morning world!

Nice to wake up at 9am! Walang boss na tumatawag for your reports..haha! Ang sarap mag-kape katapat si AA pero facebook,youtube at blog mo ang pinagkakaabalahan mo and in a comfort of your own place! Saaaraaap! At mamaya, may movie kembot pa kami with Vin and Buding, at sana makahabol si Jena. After a stressful week, I deserve to relax, to unwind with the people who will never pressure me and can give me hundred reasons to laugh! :) Sometimes, maganda rin yung sobrang busy sa work e, it means, less gimik, and it means pag gumimik ka..ang sarap! Well appreciated ang kembot. Another good thing about sunday is..its ASAP day! Makikita ko ulet si Anne..hehe..Last thursday, I watched Babe, I love you with Miramar family. It's a feel good movie. Magaling ng umarte si Anne, at natuwa talaga ako. You can see na nag-mature na sya, unlike before na puro teeny bopper roles pa. Ang cute ng character nya. Sasa Sanchez,half-american girl na pumasok bilang promo girl at sadly, an escort service para mabigyan ng magandang buhay ang pamilya nya. Pang-kanto ang ugali at pananalita. Not until, he met Sam. si Nicolas na dating bad boy but because of the death of his father, na sya yung reason, nagbago sya. He's a professor sa College of Archi in UST. Well-mannered man na galing din sa magandang pamilya. Na-inlove kay Sasa si Nic, pero kaya nya bang tanggapin ang lahat? Pati yung past nya? Kaya nya bang iharap si Sasa sa family nya na magkaiba ang mundo nila? Yun ang conflict ng story. Acceptance, changing for the better, right timing, and loving yourself. Yun naman yung lesson. Maganda yung story. May laman. And yung ending nya, nakakatuwa..sa may isetann sa recto..at maganda yung last shot kasi pinakita ang feu..hehe..

If's

If the world set no rules,
I'll call you and say, I'm missing you a lot..
If the world set no rules,
I'll say how much I wanted to be with you..
If the world set no rules,
I'll hug you forever and never give you up..
If the world set no rules,
I'll say that I am a better person now and
this is all for you..for us..
If the world set no rules,
I'll take every risk and will fight for my love..

But..the world sets every rule that can't make any of these possible.

I cried again..

Cried again.

It is not because of anger, dahil sa inis kaya ko naiyak. Alam mo yung feeling na wala kang magawa pero naiinis ka na because of pressure, tons of paperworks and overflowing work loads?
Eto yun. That is what exactly what I'm feeling. Pero, sya parin ang boss e. No questions about it. Little considerations will be nice sana. Sana.. Kailangan ko lang siguro ilabas lahat. Kumbaga, puno na ang salop. Buti na lang, nandito ang nanay ko. Himas sa likod, okay na. Isang yosi break with Kuya Mon, isang malalim na hinga, maraming buga. Sabi nga nya, "Anak, breathe in, breathe out." Pano pa kung wala sya? Salamat Ma'am My..

Pero, I need strength. Hindi yung makukuha sa yosi o sa isang kape. I need to talk to Him. I need His help. I'm getting weaker. I need His hand to touch my soul. I need His power to uplift my spirit.

Dear God,

I have a fearless heart,
But please give me a heart that understands,
A heart that is willing to give more.
Because it’s getting weak.
As time passes by,
The stains, the rust.
Causes me a lot of worries.

Please give me strength.
To overcome this trial.
If You’re testing me.
I beg for Your grace.
And pleading for Your forgiveness,
So I can start a new beginning.

I am willing to be broke.
So I can put back the pieces together.

Without Your guidance,
I will be nothing.

I’ve wanted to talk to You.
And need Your arms so I can feel peace again.

You know what’s inside my heart.
You know what’s real and You know what is true.

Busy streets of Ayala

When the bus.. the purple bus that I use to ride..
turned right to Ayala, I saw a bunch of cars on our way..bottle neck traffic.
Time check: 8:05am, anytime my boss will call.
Then, a minute later..heard my phone ringing..twas her.
"Approaching Twin (condo where she lives) ma'am."
Went down from Ayala's first stop. Walked from Ritz to Twin.
Saw lots of dogs that made me smile..those cute dogs never fails to make happy.
After meeting up with her, fixed some probs on her laptop..
Time to go to Rufino..street where our building located.
Walked from Twin to Peninsula.
It was soaking hot!
Luckily, there was a cab. Rushed into it..
"Kuya, rufino.."
Cab moments..as the cab turned right to Ayala.
The traffic was still heavy.
Time check: 9:05am..
Kuya driver's radio was playing the song I posted.
Chasing cars by Snow Patrol. I missed Grey's.
Those sleepness nights when I had a DVD marathon of it.
I have to put that on my list. Season 6. I have to buy it. I missed it!
I miss the lines of Dr.Meredith Grey..Those times when I google it after every episode.
Stopped at the intersection of Ayala and Makati Ave.
I saw MSE (Makati Stock Exchange),
9 years ago, I went to the same building to have an interview,
I was applying for a college scholarship of Henry Sy.
It was hard. I remember back then, when I was amazed by the tall buildings of this Avenue.
I asked myself then, "Dito kaya ko magta-trabaho?"
It was my greatest dream that time. To work in Makati.
I was an incoming Freshman.
And it is so good to feel that I am working here for almost 4 years now.
The result of the scholarship? Well, I didn't pass.
From nearly 40 who applied, they got 2.
Who were my classmates.
They're both CPAs now.
Great that I have a mom. :)
I saw Ayala Triangle. It was the place where I sitted 3 yrs ago,
when I got my Kaplan book because I was hired in Sykes
as a trainee of Ameriprise Financial.
I remember, I was with Marion and we sitted there to rest.
because I was carrying a thick book.
We walked from Ayala Triangle to MRT when we decided to go home.
Beside was Equittable-PCI, (Now BDO) where I got my first salary. :)
...Kuya driver asked me, (approaching the intersection of Ayala and Paseo)
"Dito na ba tayo kakaliwa?" I answered, "Sa kabila pa kuya.."
After passing by the intersection, I smiled.
It was Robinson's Summit.
The building where I first experience being a Makati girl. haha!
RS will be in my heart always for I gained true friends, great experience
and unforgettable moments that I will cherish for life time.
Time check: 9:20am
I heard my phone ringing,it was her..I answered the call
"How's the installation of aircon in 29D?"
"Ma'am, approaching Cypress pa lang po, I'll check it and call you when I get there."
"Okay, Thank you. Bye."
....The cab turned left to Rufino.
"Kuya sa may green lang na building ah."
The cab stopped. Paid 50 bucks for a ride that recollect some of my memorable
Ayala experience. :)

Espadrilles! I really want!

Because of craving and eagerness to buy, I did some research where these beautiful shoes came from. Hahaha! Adik! I was able to google an article from Philippine Star written by Jackie Lou Blanco, same person who brought Espadrilles here. You can check out her store Sueno de Espadrilles on the 4th floor of The Podium. It's not that expensive, P650 bucks, you already have them! I want to buy the jeans style, green for UAAP season which is in July pa naman and white with blue stitches. Before, I was craving for Sanuk pero expensive naman! Its not practical..thank God for this great shoes and let me say, thanks Ms. Blanco for paving the way..hehehe..

According to Blanco,the first pair of Espadrilles she bought was in 1983. It was during a trip to the States with her mom. She promised herself to find out where she could purchase them. She searched the Net one-day and found the site http://www.espadrilles.com/. She was amazed with so many beautiful designs and evolved after so many years. She had the chance of meeting the two ladies who were partners in the business. She was offered to be an industrial partner. She was so thrilled and been part of the business venture, and to top that, it was for espadrilles.

What are Espadrilles?
Espadrilles are traditionally flat shoes, produced in natural colors. The soles are usually made out of straw, wood or rubber. They may be flat, platform or wedge-shaped, and can be made of natural fiber or synthetic fiber rope, or flexible synthetic materials cast to resemble rope. The tops are made out of fabric, usually canvas or cotton. Espadrilles were originally made by hand and are still relatively easy to find.

Where did Espadrilles originate?
Espadrilles were originally made in France and Spain. The term espadrille is French. “Espardenyes” is Spanish. Espadrilles were produced in the Catalonia region of Spain, and also in the mid-Pyrenees in France.

Why are they called Espadrilles?
Its name comes from esparto, the Spanish name for the plant that the shoe soles are made of. Currently though, espadrilles are made out of other materials in addition to the traditional esparto and cloth. Because they are made out of fabric and plant matter, they are best worn in hot, dry climates like ours.

Why are they so comfortable?
The answer is in the soul of its sole. The natural fibre sole moulds to the contours of the feet and lets the skin breathe.

Today it is worn by celebrities like Jennifer Aniston, Heidi Klum and Paris Hilton and produced by fashion designers like Ralph Lauren, Pare Gabia and Donna Karan.

I have to edit my blog for this trivia:

Before sya maging super "must have" dito sa pinas, Marion has already worn this..naalala ko lang bigla..hahaha..galing lang. She's wearing a criss-cross flat espadrille, given by her mom. This was last year.

Vice Ganda Fever

Clap Clap Clap for Vice Ganda! Sobrang galing nya talaga! Sumikat sya sa comedy bars like Punchline, Laffline and Metro. BNC watched him once, sobrang nakakatawa talaga! I watched vids sa youtube like the compilation of "May Nag-text!" and I pasted one of his performances sa punchline (medyo panget nga lang ang kuha..hehehe). I am proud to say na Tamaraw din sya. He took up pol sci pero di nya natapos because he worked na as stand-up comedian. Nung nandun nga kami, he said na.."Sa FEU din ako nag-aral dati.." Bumalik pa talaga sya from dressing room sa table namin para magpa-picture. He's very nice and very intelligent. Hirap kaya mag-isip ng mga jokes na impromptu. And he's doing it excellently! He has an upcoming concert at the big dome on May 15 entitles "May Nag-text, May Show Ako!" I'm hoping na sana makapanood kami. At sana kumpleto kami.

Stressed-out!

Am not feeling well, yesterday pa. Stress siguro ang dahilan. I have colds, my head,nape, and down to my shoulders are aching. Another reason is I had to go out sa office lots of times to do turn over, punch listings, meetings, meet ups. Init lamig kaya eto napala ko. Cindz told me that kagaguhan daw ang magkasakit because of work kaya pinipilit ko maging okay. Test daw ito how strong I am. Kahit super namumula na ang mata ko kanina at hindi na mabuti ang pakiramdam, I went to 25A twin towers, 29B chatham and 6D to do punchlistings with ENR. I did the renewal contract of 52 legaspi suite and able to send updates regarding 41D Pacific Plaza. Nagtataka rin ako kung bakit ko nakakaya lahat. Partly, walang choice..partly, nacha-challenge din ako. Alam ni ENR na am not in great condition, she even said, uminom daw ako ng maraming water and please wag daw ako magkakasakit. I don't have any plan na umabsent. Ngayon pa na sobrang pilay kami because of the things na nangyayari sa office. Part of me, proud sa sarili ko kasi nakakaya ko pa gawin ang maraming responsibilities. I'm even surprised with myself kasi kung dating ako to, malamang nag-give up na ko. Pero hindi e. Hindi na ako yun. I was planning pa nga to watch Babe, I love you after office pero I decided to go home so I have enough rest. Alyz called me na uminom daw kami sa Greenbelt pero tinanggihan ko. Marunong narin akong humindi ngayon. hehehe.. Pagbaba ng phone, inisip ko na uumagahin ako tapos, sunday na yun and I have to prepare pa for monday. Grabe! Puro trabaho na nasa isip ko. Okay narin yung ganito..busy. Para hindi na mag-isip ng mga malulungkot na bagay. Naaalala ko yung sinabi ni Cindz, hindi ka na nalulungkot, nagiging productive ka pa. May point diba? :)

Happy Silver Birthday Tetai!

Taken when we were doing a mag for marketing. 3rd yr college. National Bookstore, Recto. Our first picture together.

Just got home from Tetai's birthday celebration. Pinoy deli..lechon, pansit, rellenong bangus, hipon at marami pang iba..sarap sarap! BNC were there, sayang wala si bern..mas masaya sana.. I invited Ms. Ces (kala mo birthday ko e.. haha!), nandun din si Soy and Chins of course! Dumating din si Kirkee aka Kuya Kim. Hahaha! Humabol din si Marion..May mga moments na nangyari..nabad-trip si Vin because of Buding's joke..

MOMENT 1:
Yan: Pinaglilihian mo si vin noh? (to Buding)
Ding: Oo nga e, gusto ko kasi gwapo anak ko pero yung magiging anak ko, hindi favorite color ang red..green ang favorite nya.
Crowd: Ooooohhhhwwww....
Vin: Tang*na! Walang ganyanan!
Walk out si kuya..

Nagulat kami sa reaction ni Vin. For me, parehas silang mali. Medyo di swak sa panahon ang banat ni Buding pero medyo OA si Vin. Dapat kilala na nya si Buding na ganon talaga sya bumanat. College days pa, prangka talaga si Buding.

MOMENT 2:
Habang gulat ang lahat sa reaction ni Vin. Umupo si tita samin (Tetai's mom). Kwentuhan about elections..mga napupusuan na iboboto..then, bumanat si Tita:

Tita: (Habang nakatingin sakin) Alam mo, may naaalala ako..Si John..
(...John was Tetai's past.I first met him, Bday ni tita at sa bahay din nila..that was 4 or 3 yrs ago..)
Yan: (Hindi alam ang gagawin) Tita, wala na po ako balita sa kanya eh..pero friend ko sya sa facebook.
Tita: Hindi ba kayo nagtetext?
Yan: Hindi ko na po alam ang number nya e..nawala po kasi ang phone ko before.
Tita: Alam mo naman ang bahay nya diba?
Yan: Opo, sa filinvest.
Tita: Puntahan mo naman sya minsan..nami-miss ko na rin sya..
Yan: Sige po tita, minsan yayain ko sya dito..
(Sinisiko ko si Jena at ang tingin ni Buding saken ay may kasamang pagtatanong..hahaha!)

MOMENT3:
Di pa kami nakakapag-move on sa binanat ni Tita..May kumakatok..
"Best, (referring to tetai) pahingi ng barya sa tricycle.."
Tetai: Barya? eto oh. (inabot nya sa pinto)

Then..may pumasok..it was Marion. Nagulat ako, though I knew she's coming because in the first place, she's Tetai's bestfriend. But..it was awkward..seeing her after months and knowing that we're not okay was a bit uncomfy.

Marion: (to Buding) Hi Buding! Namiss kita!!! (hugging each other) Hi Jena! Si Melvin?
Buding: Nako..nag walk out si koyah..
Then, tuloy tuloy na sya sa dining area.
She's super tan kasi kakabeach.Tumaba sya ng sobra. Sa FB page nya, I saw, she gained 6 kilos. Bagay naman..and I can see that she's happy with Lana..Well, I am happy to see her kahit the whole night, hindi kami nagpansinan.

After eating, watching SNN and kwentuhan galore. We decided to have coffee in Sbux Morato.

MOMENT4:
Buti sumunod si Vin sa Sbux after the walk-out scene. Hinatid nya pala si Chins at nagpalamig ng ulo.Because it's Tetai's 25th birthday, naglaro kami ng game..magsasabi kami ng 25 Facts about him..paikot sya..first is Ms.Ces..

1.Ms. Ces: Mataray

2.Yan: Laging late.
Fact: Ang pinakamatagal nya kong pinag-antay ay 3 hours during our marketing defense.

3.Vin: Adik sa UAAP!!!
Fact: During college, pinagpapalit nya ang klase sa uaap, kahit absent basta makapanood lang.

4.Kirk: Coffee Addict.
Fact: Nakasama na nya si tetai ng whole day na puro kape lang.

5.Soy: Sya ang unang nag-approach kay John.
Fact: Mcdo q.ave yun ng makita nya si John, wearing his feu uniform..Hindi nahiya si kuya at umupo ito sa tapat ni John at inalok ng crinkles and the rest is history.

6.Jena: Nagtago sya sa likod ng cabinet.
Fact: John's place ang set up..hindi alam ng kuya na may kasama si John sa kwarto..kaya nung kumatok ito at may kukunin na something, mega tago si choova.

7.Ding: Rhyming words.
Fact: During their bum days, napa-uso nila ang rhyming words like kainis ipis, malamang komang, uki butiki at marami pang iba.

8.Marion: Flexible.
Fact: You can talk with him from non-sense things to sensible topics.

9.Yan: Caramel Frappe, coffee based.
Fact: Favorite drink nya sa Sbux.

10.Vin: Blush on.
Fact: Nung college pa kami, nagtataka ang lahat bakit red cheeks si kuya at nung naging close kami. Inamin nya na naglalagay sya ng blush on. Hahaha! Buti ngayon, tinigil na nya yun..hahaha!

11.Kirk: Paminta.
Fact: Nung unang nakita ni Kirk si Tetai, that was 2002. Alam na nyang paminta ito at inamin ni tetai kay kirk yun nung 2007 lang. At sa same sbux store kung nasaan kami..

12.Soy: Gym buff.
Fact: Kaya nya ang 500 sit-ups.

13.Jena: Heart throb.
Fact: Pag hindi pa nag asawa si Jena ng mga 40 something, gusto nyang mag-kaanak kay Tetai. At tumawa lang ng malakas si tetai sa offer. Hahaha!

14.Ding: Crisostomo Ibarra.
Fact: He played Crisostomo Ibarra nung presentation namin ng Noli sa Rizal nung college. At si Buding ang Maria Clara kaya puro kalokohan ang nangyari.

15.Marion: Manila's hottest.
Fact: Favorite radio station nya ang magic at favorite radio show nya ang spooky nights.

16.Yan: Arian.
Fact: we have the same name, dahil nung pinanganak sya, caesarian si tita. Kaya pag tinatawag sya ni Tita, paheras kaming nalingon.

17.Vin: Fast-food Fanatic.
Fact: fries and burger:mcdo, chicken: jollibee and chinese food:chowking

18.Kirk: A real friend.
Fact: Si Tetai ang napapagsabihan nya ng mga secrets nya coz he knows na safe ang mga yun.

19.Soy: Madam Claudia Buenavista.
Fact: Sobrang nagagaya nya si Jean Garcia at sobrang nakakatawa!

20.Ding: Galera Goer.
Fact: Simula nung Galera tradition, ngayon lang sya nag-miss. Last 2007, twice syang pumunta dun at ang pagitan lang ay 2 months.

21.Marion: Ana Fernandez.
Fact: Nagkaroon din naman sya ng girlfriend, si Ana Fernandez nung high school sya.

22.Yan: Artist.
Fact: Sobrang galing nyang magsulat ng poem kaya nagkakasundo kami. At magaling syang mag-sketch.

23.Vin: Dependable.
Fact: Laging ready ang house nila Tetai sa mga friends nya. Nakitulog na dun si Vin, ako, kirk, at megz. At after uaap games, sa bahay lagi nila ang tuloy at dun nakiki-dinner at nakiki-internet ang mga beki.

24.Kirk: Sbux Career.
Fact: Sobra syang adik sa sbux at nagtrabaho din sya dun as Accounting Assistant pero nung last days nya, umabsent sya because of FEU-LaSalle game at the araneta.

25.Marion: Seeing the good in others.
Fact: Kahit laitera si tetai, pag nag-confess ka sa kanya about someone, laging nya iniisip na may something positive, something good sa tao na yun. Lagi syang may sense of balance.

I was with him, Buding and Jena on the night of April 7th, and able to greet him a Happy Birthday when the clock ticked at 12mid. And I was with him until April 8 was over. And hoping to be with him when he celebrate his Gold birthday..syempre with the rest of the bekis! :)

I miss being hugged

I miss being hugged..lalo na ngayon. Super pressured sa work! I'm avoiding to blog something work related for I don't want to feel the pressure. Because I have a beautiful life outside Cypress. Dahil sa totoo lang lagpas lagpasan na ang info that I need to absorb and learn. For the past 2 weeks, I learned some little things, ( I say little for this company has been with the business for over 20 years) about brokerage. Thank God I've been with property management for a year, pero it's not enough coz I handled accounting not operations. Another responsibility that stresses me a lot! It demands a bunch of learnings that I need to pick up somewhere? Honestly, I don't really know where I can get those. One client said, it will be a good training ground for me, another skill..yes! I'm getting your point people but I have a loooooong list of to do's that I don't know how to manage. Nangangapa ako sa dilim. And I can't learn all of those in just a snap. I need time..I need guidance. Don't put me in a battle that I don't have enough tools. I need those so I can be efficient and I can meet your standard. Please bear with me if I have some mistakes at di pulido ang trabaho ko coz I'm just starting. And it's making me nervous. It's making my heart beat faster and it has a resonance na yun lang ang naririnig ko. Pero pilit kong nilalakasan ang loob ko. Pilit kong kinakaya.

But, at the end of a stressful day. I miss being hugged..I just miss being with someone whom I can share things, who will listen to me. And will say, "Don't give up,you can do it!" Inspirational words..so the next day, I am ready to fight again.

Learning in hard way..

..broke days..those were the moments I met pain.

I made this vid after a week ata (can't remember) when she broke up with me..
And this was my blog after the storm..I wrote this months or a year after the relationship. Marami akong natutunan. Sa isang book na nabasa ko, you dont have to change the person the way you want to see her. Every person has flaws, imperfections, shortcomings. I realized, binago ko sya..dun sa taong gusto ko. Hindi ko sya hinayaan dun sa taong gusto nya maging..mali ako dun..maling mali. I know, she's happy right now. And I'm praying, ganon din ako. In time..at pag nahanap ko na yung para sakin, I'll be better..better than before.

“IF YOU DO THE SAME OLD THING IN THE SAME OLD WAY, YOU WILL GET THE SAME OLD TIRED RESULTS.” – this was quoted by the author of the book I am currently reading. Eye-opener right? And you will realize it is TRUE. I was been in love with a lot of girls lately. Tawag nga nila dun, Calendar Girls, kasi naman every month, iba. Ako man hindi ko alam, pero aaminin kong may nararamdaman talaga ako eh. They amaze me. Siguro dahil sa maganda, o dahil sa sobrang nice. Para yata kasi akong sinumpa, after my almost 2 years na relationship sa sobrang babaeng minahal ko. Siya na yata yung masasabi kong greatest love ko. Pero yung greatest love ko, siya din yung nanakit sakin ng sobra. Ang daming sacrifices. Ang dami dami. Nandun yung naglakad ako mula Zuzuaregui hanggang bahay namin dahil wala na akong pera pamasahe. Pinan-date kasi namin. Minsan siguro mali ko din kasi pagdating sa girlfriend, ayoko silang pinapagastos. Ewan. Hindi dahil sa pride ah, dahil kasi pakiramdam ko, ako yung responsible sa gastusin, parang tatay lang. Pati pamilya ko, di ko na pinapakinggan. Basta alam ko lang, mahal ko sya at gagawin ko ang lahat mag-stay lang sya. Tanga ba? Hindi. Nagmamahal lang. Pake ba nila kung yun yung way ko eh, kanya kanya lang yan ng pagpapakita ng pagmamahal. Basta ang mahalaga, hindi mo sya niloloko. Tapat ka lang sa nararamdaman mo. Naku, baka siguro natakot sakin. Parang baliw lang kasi. Haha! Pero nung sinabi na nyang iiwan na nya ko, nung una, wala kong naramdaman. Parang manhid lang. Hindi ko rin alam yung tunay na dahilan kung bakit nya ko iniwan. Ang sinabi lang nya, kung kelan daw nya ko kailangan, saka ko nawala. Huh? Eh, lagi nga ko nandun eh. Baka ako lang nakakaalam nun. Baka masyado akong nalunod ng pagmamahal, nabulag na may problema na palang dapat ayusin. Ako pa ang insensitive ngayon? Ayos! Ang natatandaan ko kasi, lilipat ako ng bahay nun. Sa condo ako titira. Di ako mayaman ah, may kasama ko, share ng upa. May lakad kami dapat nun eh, tapos ginabi ako sa pag aayos. Nagtext ako na di na ko makakarating at dun na ako matutulog, tapos, ang sunod na lang na nangyari, nag text sya. Yung mga salitang hindi ko aakalain na masasabi nya. Ang sakit. Sobra. Huwag nyo na alamin, baka di nyo kayanin. Nun ko lang sya nakita ng ganon kagalit, kahit may mga away kami dati, pero lahat yun napag uusapan namin. Wala nga akong natatandaan na may sigawan moment kami eh. At kahit sa anong paraan, di ko sya sinaktan ng pisikal. Hanggang ngayon, naghahanap parin ako ng sagot kung bakit ganon yung nangyari. Pwede naman naming pag usapan ulit yun diba? Katulad ng mga dati naming away. Sabi ng marami, baka way out daw. Kumbaga, dati nang may problema pero di nya sinasabi at hindi sya makahanap ng way para makaalis sa relasyon. Baka mabait ako. Kasalan pa tuloy ngayon ang pagiging mabait. Baka spoiler ako, I mean binibigay ko yung gusto nya lagi. Pero diba pag mahal mo, kung meron ka namang ibibigay, bakit hindi mo gagawin? Haay, hirap! Pero minsan iniisip kong baka totoo yung napapanood ko sa TV, bigla na lang mawawala ang pagmamahal ng isang tao. Walang paliwanag, basta gumising ka isang umaga, hindi mo na mahal yung partner mo. Baka ganun yung nangyari. Lecheng araw yun ah! Kelan kaya yun? Di ko na lang iisipin kasi kahit ako na involve sa relationship, walang mahanap na sagot at hindi ko alam kung saan ko hahanapin. Masasabi mo na lang. Tapos na. Lahat ng sadness dinaan ko sa gimik, sobrang saya naman ang kasunod. Labas, Kembot with friends, gastos. Gastusin ang lahat ng pera na yan tutal akin naman yan lahat! Para kang nakawala. Parang lahat ng sinakripisyo mo, gusto mo ulit maranasan. Single = Freedom. Yan ang formula na sinunod ko. Pero, nakakapagod pala. Parang walang direksyon. Parang kulang kahit masaya. Parang di kumpleto. Ganon minsan ang pakiramdam ko pagkatapos ng isang gabing puyatan at gimik. Nakakapagod maging malaya. Minsan, nakakamiss yung mga away tapos magkakabati kayo. Nakakamiss yung after gimik night, may itetext kang isang tao kasi nag aalala sya sayo. Kaso yung taong yun, nasa ibang kamay na. Bakit ganon? Sya ang bilis nagkaroon ng bago? Bakit ako hirap na hirap? Diba ako ang nasaktan? Bakit ikaw ang minamahal? Minsan napapaisip tuloy ako kung nagmahal nga sya talaga kasi parang ang dali palitan lahat ng memories. Ganon na lang yun? Ganon kadali? Lalo lang nakakalungkot, parang may hinahanap ako. Gusto ko rin ng magmamahal sakin, gusto ko magmahal ulit. Gusto ko na ng masaya. Sino ba naman kasi ang ayaw diba? Unfinished business? Nah. Coz I’m over her. Pano ko nagawa? Diyos ko! Ang HIRAP! As in! Saksi lahat ng mga kaibigan ko kung pano ako dumating sa finish line, gapang kung gapang. Gumagapang na nga, may bakal pang nakalagay sa paa mo. Ganon. It’s worth it. Kasi in the process of moving on, you’ll get healed, you’ll be free and you’ll be a better person.

The Clash Experience

Tetai: Explosive!

Yes! It was! Sam Worthington's performance was overwhelming. This epic movie gave justice to the word GOD. Na-hook tuloy kami as Greek Myth. Characters like Zeus and Hades brings back the old times when I used to study them in our literature subject. Nagalingan ako when I saw the Gods and Goddesses of Olympus..sabi ko kay Buding, "Ang galing.." (drooling) Haha..It was a nice experience and experiencing it with the BNC made it lots of FUN! :)

Yipeee! It's Clash night for the BNC! :D
Sam Worthington played Corporal Jake Sully in the epic science fiction film, the Avatar now playing Perseus. We're watching it in 3D!!! Am just soo happy! Dahil sa sobrang saya, di namin mapigilan ni Tetai ang magtext how excited we are! Hahaha! Hope it will be a good night. :) And sana makasama si Jena.. I'll blog how it was.. but for now, I have to lessen my to do's..ENR might call..hehehe..

Watch the trailer and experience the action! DAMN THE GODS!!! :p

What happens when someone breaks your heart?

Saw a verse from Jenny's FB account written by Joe D' Mango..very true..

When someone breaks your heart, first you are
shocked. Someone will say you are
heartbroken and you examine the words BREAK
and HEART and HEARTBROKEN and you
immediately decide that it’s inaccurate. You feel
pain in the region of your heart and you think it’s
your heart breaking but one’s heart doesn’t really
break, something else does---FAITH. YOU STOP
BELIEVING.

No, not in the big things which are most of the
time irrelevant. You still believe in God or Buddha
or some Supreme Being, you still believe child
prostitution is bad. You just stop believing in the
small things that you do, the small things that give
meaning to your life, and you begin to think
everything is pointless: WHY get up? WHY
dress up? WHY breathe in and out? WHAT
FOR? WHAT FOR?

When someone breaks you heart (your faith), you
stop believing and you switch off the
lights inside your heart. Someone is
home, but that someone is lying in the dark, in the
room farthest from the gate, and that someone
can’t hear anything. Friends, parents, they all call
out to her from the gate (“COME OUT” which
means “MOVE ON”) but they are unheard, unseen,
unacknowledged.

When someone breaks your heart, you turn
into a small ball of self-pity. You lie in
bed, in a ball. You hug your knees keeping them
close to your chest, like a fetus. Freud said,
it’s human instinct to go back to the womb where
we can feel safe.

But that’s what happens when someone breaks
your heart---THEY STEAL THE VERY THING
THAT MAKES YOU FEEL SAFE, WHOLE,
INTACT.

-- Joe D' Mango

On a sunday afternoon

I've got to see ASAP XV music vid for the 1st time. I know it's a bit late but, as they say..better late than never! Kanto Boys' performance made me smile. Refreshing to see JLC doing some funny stuffs rather than his usual dramatic scenes. I love the dance number of the It Girls where Anne really did a good job. Nice to watch her smile and laugh again after the wardrobe malfunction thingy in bora. She deserves respect guys..just give it to her! Stop downloading and sharing vid and pics which by the way, I'm a fan in FB. And please support her movie Babe, I love you with Sam Milby that I will watch, maybe this weekend. On one commercial break, I was curious to see what Party Pilipinas offers, counter part of ASAP in GMA 7. The usual..boring show with sooo boring peeps! Sorry guys pero naman! Be honest..Hindi nila matatapatan ang ASAP, not even closer to ABS standards. Bago pa uminit ang ulo ko, nilipat ko na agad ang channel ng tv..hahaha! Medyo ginutom, kaya I went to the kitchen to check what mom cooked for lunch, one of my favorites..adobong atay..yihaaa! Enjoying eating while watching ASAP on a sunday afternoon made my mind and body on a comfort zone. Kahit pa bukas alam kong I will go back to reality..okay narin..kasi isang araw pa ng bakasyon, di ko na kaya! Yay!

First Quarter: My Movie Experience

First for 2010..AVATAR! A great movie that made titanic sank again. 15 long years of making this film was worthy because of its success! A world hit not just because of its animation but because of its story that makes you realize things -acceptance, love for nature, respect and care. Lucky indeed to witness this movie!



Number 2 on my list is ALICE in WONDERLAND! A movie that made for 3D.. :) If you're thinking that this fairy-tale was prepared for kids..think again..it has a deep story, profound characters and meaningful lines. I enjoyed Johnny Depp's character (Mad Hatter) and Anne Hathaway's (White Queen).



The action-packed film SHERLOCK HOLMES played by Robert Downey Jr., is my 3rd choice. Nakakabilib ang action scenes! He's weird yet wit character made the story entertaining. Extra special sya because it was bern's homecoming.. :)



PERCY JACKSON and the LIGHTNING THIEF is on 4th spot. When I first saw the trailer last year, I said to myself that I will not miss it..and everytime it was played, I repeatedly say, panonoorin ko 'to. The trailer was enticing but when I saw the film, there's something missing. Not to the extent of frustrating me but there's something lacking, siguro I expected so much pero it did not satisfy me.



Denzel Washington's BOOK OF ELI wraps up my top 5 film this quarter. "Nakakahigop ng lakas", it was Bern's statement after we watched it. Eli's book is the Holy Bible. The setting of the movie is a post-war. You can get what you need by trading or in an easy way, killing someone. Gary Oldman is searching for the last piece of the Holy Bible because he believes that Religion is power. And Denzel needs to protect it for mankind.

Other films I watched: Valentine's day, Dear John and Miss you like crazy.

Excited to watch CLASH OF THE TITANS! Yipeee!

Random thoughts..and now.

I miss you..

Your hand that says I'm just here..
And now, I feel sad,
no one's there to hold it..
It makes me feel that, I'm alone..
Your head that lay on my shoulder..
And now, I feel sad,
no one's there to make me feel that I'm loved.
Your eyes that says, forever..
And now, those eyes are looking some where..
in a world without me..
Your laughter that means happy ending,
And now, I'm hearing no one..

Our dreams..and now, its gone..
It's tearing me in pieces..

One Holy Kembot

Buding in sariyaya with Malapitan clan..Melvin in lucban with family..Bern in delhi, working..tetai commented on my post na di natuloy ang batangas nila..so it's me and tetai ang natira..at dahil dyan, atubiling naghanap ng kembot ang mga beki.. :)

Lumabas ako to check our street. Sarado lahat. Maski ang sari-sari store sa tabi namin.. Hmmmm...mukang malabo. Pero pursigidong kumembot. Aminado naman kami ni tetai na sobrang boring at frustrated kami sa nangyari. Para bang hindi kumpleto ang taon..at nakakainis isipin..i asked him kung isusugal namin ang starbucks sunnymede..nasa sykes building yun, call center, so meaning open yun malamang. Nagpababa ng araw, at umalis ako ng 4.30 dito sa house. Ang daming tao sa st.peter, pero na-catch ang attention ko when I saw sbux convergys.. may nagkakape at open ang lights..hindi na-convince, pero nung dumaan ako sa sbux shopwise..confirmed! open sila.. :) I texted tetai right away and he replied na open din ang mcdo at chowking sa may kanila..yes! pumapabor parin..mcdo q.ave edsa kami nagkita..open na open! haha..made me happy! Cheeseburger de luxe for both of us..yosi..then we decided to have coffee in morato since open naman pala lahat ng sbux stores..sakay ng jeep..ang daming establishments parin ang business as usual..sobrang modernized na talaga. Before, monday palang, wala ng palabas sa tv, wala ng tao, at ang maririnig mo na lang ay ang pabasa..ngayon, iba..we arrived there, ang daming tao..sabi ni tetai, parehas namin sila..mga hindi natuloy ang summer escapades..hehe..Matagal tagal narin naming hindi ginagawa yun, yung dalawa lang kami..kwentuhan about life and love..favorite topics naming dalawa..catching things up with him made me happy. I missed tetai, i missed our conversations..sobrang ganon parin. Pero ngayon, mas mature topics na..about being an adult..like him, kinakabahan narin ako about how my future would be..25 na kami eh..mid-half way na..shux! Mas masaya yung inalala namin yung galera last year..best summer experience yun eh! Medyo sad man, pero masaya ako to be with him..isang story na naman ang madadagdag na masarap balikan..one holy kembot.. :)

Stepdad

It's kuya bobot's birthday..my step dad. I wonder bakit kuya bobot ang tawag namin sa kanya hindi tito. Siguro nasanay na lang. I first met him nung 2nd yr college ako..I was 17 then, 8 yrs ago. But, believe it or not, we're not that close. Ang daming bagay pa ang hindi ko alam sa kanya. Pero, kung tatanungin ako..gusto ko naman sya for my mom. Bilib din ako sa kanya, kasi ang hirap kaya ng long distance relationship. Nakita ko naman talaga na mahal nya si mama. Biyudo sya, his wife passed away 10 yrs ago. Sabi ni mom, 2 yrs daw na wala ang asawa nya before they met. He's from valenzuela. He has 3 kids..puro babae..yung panganay, kasing edad ni ate,27..yung sunod kasing age ni allan, 21 and yung bunso, if I'm not mistaken, 13..I met them nung umuwi si mom dito at nag-ninang sya sa kasal ng common friend nila. They were nice, pero again..hindi ko sila close. I'm wondering what our life will be pag ikinasal na sila. Yep..they are planning to get married. Admitted, I was hurt nung nalaman ko..syempre naman diba? Pero am not selfish, if mom's happy..why not? First reaction lang siguro talaga na totally..andun na yung reality na my mom and my dad are not going to be okay. Wala na. Dead end na for them. Tapos na story nila. Para bang lalagyan na ng tuldok. And, masakit yun. I remember saying it to ate. My ate is kind, kindest samin..sya yung tipong dapat ka nang magalit pero hindi parin sya nagagalit. Kaya okay lang sa kanya. Mas okay sila ni kuya bobot. They're texting, hindi katulad ko. Am not sure why I've been in this situation..yung okay lang..kung ano na..yun na..hindi ko naman masabi na mom, nasaktan ako nung nalaman ko yung plan. Siguro the most hurting part lang is yung ni-compare nya ko kay kuya bobot about how to handle my finances. Sobrang magastos daw ako unlike him. I was crying and told her that, she does not have to compare me with him. Dahil magka-iba kami. In a lot of ways, magkaiba kami. From then, yung 1km na layo namin, dumoble..ang hirap..at masakit..i really have dad issues..Sana si allan, my younger bro, will be a great dad. Well, kuya mike, ate's hubby, is a great dad to mai and soy..and he's been a great hubby to my ate. As I'm writing this, naririnig ko that kuya bobot is cooking. Yun naman yung gusto ko sa kanya, magaling sya magluto..mas magaling pa kay mom. Masarap yung pansit nya at pastel. And he has electrical and carpentry skills. Marunong sya sa halos lahat ng pang tatay na trabaho. I wonder what are my dad's skills. Ganun din kaya sya sa bagong family nya? Mapagmahal kaya sya? Mga tanong ko na malayo o baka hindi na masagot. I really wish for my mom's happiness. Kung masaya si mom, dun ako. Alam kong may nakita si mom na maganda sa kanya, why she chose him. 8 yrs is 8 yrs..i know that he is a good person, sana dumating yung time na yung mga madaming bagay na hindi ko alam sa kanya..mabawasan kahit papano..I can see a dad in him..sana mabigyan kami ng time and chances..for now, I'm thanking him for making my mom happy..

I missed summer

I miss Puerto G.

It has been our (BNC) tradition that ever year, we will spend our summer vacation in Mindoro. From a 3 and a half-hour bus ride in Cubao, which will take you in Batangas pier and another 1 hour boat ride, you will see a long white beach. Sobrang daming tao kasi it's a cheaper version of Bora. If you have 4k, buhay na buhay ka na. Nagsimula ang Galera tradition nung 2007. Sadly, hindi ako nakasama coz I spent my summer vacay in Baguio. Pero nung '08 and '09, when I experienced it, parang di na kumpleto ang summer pag wala yun. The sun, the beach, the crowd and the mindoro sling! Wow! I feel free when I'm there! Parang ina-absorb kasi ng beach ang lahat ng negative vibes mo..pag nandun ka, wala kang iisipin kundi ang magsaya. I love Galera! But now, for some reasons, hindi natuloy..I feel sad..start palang kasi ng taon, am looking forward in to that..sayang..I miss walking on the beach..I miss the shots of Galera blue..the nights of fun..the people..the celebration of friendship..haay..

Random thoughts..runaway

And now, i want to runaway..
the pain in my chest,
tears in my eyes,
the loneliness in me..
i cant bear..
And now, i want to runaway..
to runaway with you..
And now, i want to hold your hand..
and runaway with you..
I want to be with you..
and runaway with you..
But what if, I say it to you..
Would you hold my hand too?